it is week 2.5 of michaelmas term and i fancy i havent done much even though ive hardly had much time to spare. lots of time has been gobbled up reading stuff on my extra large bed, watching prison break til the wee hours of the morning, cooking, visiting friends, going to school, reading up on work. everything proceeds at a good pace, i only do what i want to do (read: i attend lectures i want to attend) and nothing is really stressing me out, and yet, something is curiously missing... i can only attribute that to withdrawal symptoms from leaving behind my sunny island for another 9 month stretch. i've caught myself referring to london as "home" on one or two occasions, but there is always this vacuous feeling i get when im in this place. like a large piece of me is missing and im jus living in perpetual lalaland where nth is for real. or maybe im jus bored, u know? in other news i am bursting with things i'll never say and sometimes i wonder what this blog is for, since i clearly cannot say those things here.

wake me up when september ends

oh another post in too many days. working in school and interacting w ppl has made me feel that my lack of mandarin standard is quite a handicap. why am i not effectively bilingual?? no, wait. the better question is, why does watching 7pm channel 8 serials not make me a better mandarin speaker? unless... unless, i've been wasting my time all this while? =) in any case, i am so glad that i've stopped working. i realise that 11 days til the flight is NOT Enough Time for me to do everything i want to. it's a question of managing time and getting enough rest at the same time, which can be quite a pain in the ass.

and im very very afraid that i can't pack all the clothesshoesbags and miscellany that i wanna bring back to london! only 20kg leh. cos the miserly sponsor of mine *** has decided it will not pay a few hundred more for the student air ticket. 10 more kg can pack 3 pairs more shoes, more sambal belachan, 2 more coats, 1 more textbook, 10 000 more sanitary pads and 1200 more pen refills, etc. haha ok the last 2 items is an old joke. the point is, wats a few hundred when you're spending so much on me already?? ok tax-payers don't shoot me. like zy said i may as well not bring so much junk since i'll be "replenishing my stock" (euphemistic term for "spending beyond the realm of human possibility") anyway.

in case u guys don't know yet, i'm flying off on the 14th of this month at night. my mum has already cried once over my impending departure (a bit premature i know), but at least there are some things that won't change- thankfully. dear mummy, i will miss you the mostest. all the food comes second after you!!

some photos of summer 2006, which is Not Over Yet!

Yet again

 

Sardinia!

 

wah next time when im really a teacher, remind me to close down my blog. or like hide behind a super pseudonym.

anyway old pals i miss you!!!! for work, family and boyfriend reasons i havent been able to see u guys as much as i want to... many apologies. life is not bad la. i have lost 2 kg in singapore, i still have my tan from sardinia (gonna top it up soon at the pool WOOT) and my face has not broken out in a combination of oil and dirt- Yet. haha that's so superficial. ok that aside im giving econs tuition to a J2 girl, i will be going to work at HCI next week and im flying back to London on the 14th of sept. and im re-reading The Cider House Rules which is a gd book. yah i think ive answered all the FAQ liao.

i would leave u with some deep thoughts of mine normally... waha!!.. but not today... it was good meeting up w some of the china scholars from our batch anyways.. those guys are damn funny.

school attachment

here it is, the inevitable post reflecting on my attachment experience. firstly i must say that ive met some strange characters, seen some interesting ways of punishing students, and grown to appreciate different teaching styles in my short stay here. the greatest take-away is of course the real teaching that we did, cos nothing quite substitutes for really doing it. this wasn't my first time doing relief work, but each time i step into a different environment (primary school, indep sec sch, govt sec sch) there's always new challenges. what doesnt change - the pre-lesson anxieties and the post-lesson self reviews where you have to be brutally honest with yourself. e.g, i get angry too easily, i talk too fast, i use large words and forget that im doing it, etc. but yeah, after a slightly tougher day in school yesterday i had the chance to reconcile with myself what is it that i expect from myself in this profession. there are no shortcuts! and that's one thing i'll have to repeat to myself in the first few years of real work.

doggy days

have been busy since coming back with the sch attachment and meeting up w ZY, classmates and even older friends. but yest night was really the winner, ZY and i watched pirates 2 (johnny depp is the man) then met most of 03a15 for dinner at this italian restaurant place which most of us felt was overpriced and too stingy on portion sizes! lots of silent bitching at tables, refusing to co-operate with chim's games and wandering aimlessness as we searched for a nice after-dinner-cafe. must say that ZY blended in quite nicely with the crowd cos of the ppl he's alr met back in london, like fuzz sheryl zhuanghui and the pre-movie gathering we had with the cheekygirls chim and shups. shloke and i spontaneously decided to have a sleepover at her place, but it was a pity the other girls couldn't join us. we had a drink at the Balcony and talked quite a bit with engsiang like in the old days. talk talk talking abt things that we had been wanting to articulate, abt things we couldn't change and things that we regretted. truly enjoyed that part, esp when shloke and i almost pushed es off his rocker chair. the whole damn thing was tilting like 45 degrees with One Very Tall Engsiang in it. haha... the next morning, ZY and i cycled/walked to ECP and basically had a very sweaty afternoon in the park. i think i'm gonna crash tonight man! but wow. i do love cycling.

adventures in italy land.

bbback.. with a vengeance

hey fellas, in case i haven't told you, I'm finally home after a 9 month long absence. the 24 hours after touchdown was disorienting and jet-lagging, but suffice to say I'm glad to be back. the two trips (not one) to Italy were really shiok... all that pasta and pizza and seafood and desserts, washed down by good company and beautiful sights (that def includes the cute italian waitors) was so worth every pound and euro I spent. more photos to come later. for now, it's time to SHOP with my mummy!! and visit my relatives too.

btw, if you're from the Great Class of 03A15, contact me on MSN! it's high time we arranged a class outing, we just have to think of something brilliant to do. and if you're from my Wonderful Group of Friends in London, see you sooon. lastly to my nanas, hope you've all been happily ponana-ing, and yes we really need to get ourselves more cool nicknames.

Birthday shoutouts to: Kelvin, Fuzzy and Chimsters. Happy 19th, 20th and 20th birthdays respectively, I've got presents for you all!

Take care.

hello, The Best Friend has Landed. when we got to yunlei's room we promptly took a video of her literally sitting in her backpack and being zipped up!! yes. it is that big, it's like a ninja turtle shell. ok add that to my videoclip collection (which thus far comprises of zy doing his handstand and also zy chanting something abt terkwa waha) it's something for posterity man.

mmm so last night for some strange reason i was thinking abt how it is almost inevitable that there'll be some big fall-out someday and couldn't help wondering what it'd be abt... ok actually i almost know what it will be about but im just being a neurotic piece of shit. anyway im dreading that day cos i know how bad our tempers are!!!! pfffff. 1 thing abt being with someone is the liberty of being able to argue and knowing it wont matter much at the end of the day, or knowing that it shouldn't.

fuck this is very incoherent but what to do.

flatmates

one sangria jug, one fondue set, a spider web, a wasp catcher and three Harry's Challenges later, i must say that the Spanish dinner and the day trip to Brighton were one of the best days this year. love u guys =)

emily tan comes in 3.5 days time. as of now, she is frantically unpacking all her cold wear and packing in mr stripey, the sunglasses and her skimpy swimsuit.

hashbrown days

haha... it's been a while since a hashbrown tasted this good.

world enough

omg.... this week is gonna be crazy. i'm in the midst of packing up my stuff at zy's moving it back to my room and then moving wat im gonna keep in london to nic's place. doing other stuff like host fuzz, meeting jc classmates, going zone 4 for lunch, getting a haircut (finally a real one) , settling house, getting my new batch of books from amazon, cooking lunch for zy when i'm in, and slacking as possible in between. think sunbathing on the bed, endlessly surfing the net, watching movies and playing games. ok aside from the hassle of moving stuff, it's a real good place to be in now. =) yes and when i go home i should learn how to cook other things besides pasta (which i can bake, cook with sauce and stir fry-yes it can be stir fried), marinated stuff (pork chicken or fish) and fried rice!! ok im real pro at those things but that's all man.

back from lala-land

yes, guys and girls, the exams are over! the end of my year1. the beginning of a 4 month long adventure, the one called summer break!! haha ok i know i have my dramatic tendencies. reflections on my long disappearance?

1. studying for such an extended period of time is hard. very hard.
2. house hunting in central london is also very hard. i hope agents like joe are a rarity in the london property market.
3. Amazon book purchases are the best thing on earth.
4. i hope i get my 4 Firsts on july the 12th- though i hate to admit that i care :)
5. i need my scholarship allowance in advance haha. damn. selina if youre reading this, you didn't just read it. my finances are in sound condition!! really! *waves hands frantically*

now im just looking forward to days of reading, cooking and meeting up with friends. it's absolute bliss i tell u, and things will only get better when emilytanenxian comes to London Heathrow struggling with a bolster of a present (present of a bolster?) and we reconvene at yunlei's for a much needed sleepover. and then italy, and then italy again. and back to singapore and my little blue bedroom. where- imagine! i only have to walk out of my room to demand food. and food will magically materialise! and i just dump my clothes into the family laundry load. and i have my channel 8 tv serials at 7pm every weeknight. and 3 smses later i can meet up with my cheekygirls and we can cheeky around. hahahaha. and finally, REAL dates with marshmallowboy... real dates where we dress up, meet in town, watch a movie and have dinner. and go esplanade for supper! ok dream on girl :)

heyaaaaa!!! LONG TIME NO SEE. that seems to be something im saying a lot of to a lot of ppl nowadays... its maybe a reflection of how self contained my life is over here. if i want i can literally get by a week in zy's room without going out, doing anything special or seeing anyone else other than him. i don't know if that's a good or bad sign???

all i know is, the days that have passed since the last day of school have been good fun. the sleepover at allan/john's, rojak (haaha), yesterday's impromptu outing with andre zh and khoon to tower of london and today's trip to london business school to do a 1 hr survey and earn 20 pounds. later tonite, sleepover at yun's where im gonna whack desperate housewives and maybe cut her hair haha. tmr shopping w allan for my secret mission. and friday im off to york to find fuzz and spend 3 idyllic days taking in edinburgh, back just in time for my dear's bday. wow. that's what i call a really nice break. lots of time in between to read my books.. i bought 4 this week and im done w 1.5... good stuff la.

when im back i guess it'll be time to hit the books proper, but not before i head off to oxford for another 2 days with zy and alfonso. haha it'll be a real challenge managing the time to revise but well, it sure beats pia-ing all the way, which just isn't the way i work. in other news, i think i mite start on my driving lessons when i get back. and im also thinking of doing kickboxing or yoga at the sports centre again. wahhh.. love the summer line-up already. keep dreaming of tanning on the deserted stretch of pasir ris beach that i hold dear.

to everyone who is out there holidaying now, have a safe trip, come back in 1 piece and enjoyyyyy =)

my friend who shall not be named, on the process of defecation:

**** says:
poop is the result
**** says:
poot is the process
**** says:
pootpoot is the desire
miss jo. says:
....

you know what, its strangely true.
in other news,... haha.
there is no other news la!!! life is too busy to blog. or rather i dont have anything substantial to say.. so ciao.

sweet dreams and bitter complaints

wow i really hate math and stats! i cannot wait to be rid of these things... really wanna move on to more qualitative econs and solid economic history. i'm so much better at readings and essays than tutorials involving numbers :( this academic year has been a struggle due to ST102 and MA100 but hopefully i'll conquer the demons for the summer exams and come out the better for it.

**in my defense, i never wanted to do those modules, it's cos i was MADE to. i KNEW i wld have problems.... and i do.. ok nvm the bitterness.

have been daydreaming of starting something big with my friends... no fantastic idea has kaboomed yet but the idea of the idea is already growing on me! if u get what i mean haha. still quite sure abt the teaching english thing but definitely need to suss out and find a good time to do the course. it's a fair bit of time effort and money so im not gonna plunge into it now. and also the quit-MOE-be-social-worker thing is a very nice dream of mine.

for now: really wish the paris disneyland thing will materialise :) but we'll see.

HIYA. long time no see. plans to travel, big and small, are on the way... there is hampstead, lake district, york, scotland. fun rite, it increases in distance from central london. mm wat else is there to say... ok the weather recently has been real sucky. super disincentive to go to school. i mean who wants to be out there in the cold, when they can be warm and cosy in the comforts of their own rooms? esp when they have plenty of food and dvds to keep them occupied? :)

ive bought lots of cards to write to ppl on... so tonite i shall take some time off to finally get them done and mailed out. oh and i miss home so much! i CANNOT WAIT TO GO BACK. thats like on july 1st. so far away and im already anticipating it. things to do people to see food to eat and my nice blue room and never having to return to an empty home.

yeah im so cliched i know, help me fill this up:

http://kevan.org/johari?name=jinghui

hey! im 20!

thanks goes out to my dearest boy, phil, gerald, florrine, nic, sheryl, serene, lixin, huixin, zh and tongkai for spending time w me to celebrate. and also whoever helped zy engineer his little plan that took me wonderfully by surprise. really appreciate the love, i wont let u guys down for sure. will make this year a good one for jo :) :)

just got back from watching the singsoc screening of Be With Me... i knew i jus had to blog it within watching the first minute of the film. the music is great, and there is little dialogue and you know how films are just so different from movies. i really enjoyed it even though it was slow moving. but yeah... some gripes before i wax lyrical:

1. the scene where jackie lands on fat boy is so contrived, it's as if eric khoo couldnt think of a better way to resolve the plot lines
2. the lesbian subplot is there jus to sex it up, i swear.
3. the social worker's hokkien is atrocious. damn fake.

but the good parts were really good, i was totally weeping in that scene where the bedridden wife told the old man she wanted to die. wow. that was just soooo heart-rending, so well conveyed, it went like an arrow straight to the heart. and also when theresa chan spoke so matter of factly abt her one true love passing away before christmas. for a lady who has had so many things taken away from her it was really inspiring. i can't imagine having something and then losing it.. it's so much worse than never knowing it at all. and the scenes of local sounds, local places, local food was such an assault of the senses. reminded every one of us what we were missing back home.

my ahem wish list ordered by increasing difficulty: (by popular demand, not my idea)

1. novels
2. frames with photos of me and you
3. tops
4. bags
5. shoes
6. easy exams- myself and the entire econs year1s will be grateful to you- unless the grades follow the normal distribution!!
7. help me find purpose in life
8. or happiness
9. or help the world out by bringing world peace!

im jus such a lucky girl to be so loved!! got two parcels in the mail today for my birthday!! one from emily and one from kel. anyway emily tan, i know youre reading this and damn! i jus wanna tell u again that ure really the best friend/girl/woman/person alive... ure the only person who wld really actually send me blank CDs, write me lots of little notes to send together w the card and buy me chocolate AND strawberry pocky!! it's jus too much and im so so so touched. laughed and cried at the same time when i read the part where u told me to take more photos of my neck so we can do the before-London, after-London neck assessment. and thanks kel for the bakwa!! haha i havent eaten any here. really appreciate the love man... it's jus what i need to force myself to do the hw i need to chiong tonight.

coming here has made me realise what a natural born bum i am. and such a messy girl too! i don't like myself one bit. the room is perpetually in a deplorable mess, finances are still alright but still a bit of a blackhole question sometimes (ie where did the money disappear down??), the work is barely hanging in there, and the motivation to work is a zero vector (ie, (0 0 0 0 0 0)). and i dont put myself into ANYTHING AT ALL!!! i can't think of one fucking thing ive dedicated any time, love or energy into.

ok i can think of one fucking thing. but it's still only one. i send stuff home regularly to my dearest best friend and my darling family, and the communication thing is pretty gd, almost as if i never left home. in a sense... things ive learnt: how to be by myself and do things on my own. things i like and do regularly: gym and play with little kids. but that's about it!!!!

im still pretty much the same person i was in august 2005: i need and prefer the company of close friends, loved ones. i wld much rather not be alone. and ya im still the messy so-not-together, need-to-get-her-act-straight jo. im turning 20 soon but it seems im still not out of the teenage years. oh where's my long due maturity, why's my teen angst still here? why this great tendency for the melodramatic, i don't know, i really don't. maybe it's cos over here living day to day is the most important thing. i don't plan beyond 5 days, i don't live beyond that timespan. i still dream ahead but that's just it, they're just dreams that i don't do anything about. so i plod along, i chug along like a faithful steam engine but every once in a while hysteria seizes my throat and i realise i still don't know what i'm doing after so long. i only know what days im going to pack lunch and what sandwich filling i'll use on what day.

am i going to do my masters after graduating? i don't know. the rate things are going, maybe i shouldnt. wld much rather do it when i have a thirst for knowledge (ie when im bored of work). am i enjoying myself here? i don't know. sometimes i feel damn lucky, other days im downright miserable and i say to zy "ive played enough, now i want to go home. now." am i the same person i was? i just told you, i think i am. yet how can a person be gone for months on end and not change. it just speaks of how poorly i know myself, that i can't even answer this question when no one else can.

i hope this is just the regular PMS.

it snowed today! little itty bitty flecks of white coming down like rain, the weather unbearably cold for a chinese girl clad in a short skirt. even with 40 denier stockings on it's as if your walking butt naked in the cold!

today's EH class was fantastic. nothing but discussion on the pros and cons of capitalism vs communism. got heated cos of the american guy in our class gg at one point "it's hard to understate the benefits of capitalism" and other stuff like that, whereupon the rest of our class broke out laughing. he's so... American and so pro capitalism it's funny. the class is of course made of some americans, british, british indians, chinese, singaporeans, finland dude and an african lady tutor. very international in composition, very LSE.

rushed on to joseph lancaster primary school after that for my weekly community service with 5/6 year old tykes. these kids are also very international, we've got portuguese, bengalese, ecuadorean, turkish, somalese, nigerian etc etc. they are just so adorable. on my last lesson with them im gonna take lotsa photos and buy them stickers and sweets to reward them for being darlings. it's amazing how kids take to u, and u take to them. i really really hope they get their studies straightened out so they'll have a gd life ahead of them. honestly speaking the area they come from (elephant and castle) isn't very well-to-do. it's also very dodgy. that doesn't make a fantastic environment for growing up, so my heart goes out to them, no matter how naughty they may sometimes get.

on my way back i called home and talked to my slightly sleepy mum. was mostly rambling on abt things here but i know she loves to hear from me every once in a while, even if ive got nothing very coherent or smart to say. the freezing weather makes me want to hibernate, and hibernating reminds of my blue room in my nice HDB flat where my nice family stays... so yah.. there i go again. lastly, got a package from chim!! from the US of A. CAAAllifornia. thanks dear! i'm gonna write back soon soon soon. that goes out to shups too. it's long overdue man.

MY ROOM

ok ok let this be the birthday post where i reflect on my past 19 ++ years of existence. this may bore you, in which case u can skip to the bottom where i list my birthday wishlist!! haha.

the regrets i've had so far:
-nvr developed a skill like singing or dancing or painting, instead chose to squander away youth in numerous playgrounds and with my barbie dolls and lego set and tv programmes
-nvr worked on my writing when it was the best thing i had to offer to myself, now i know that writing well is smth to be honed and not taken for granted
-i don't even have a decent handwriting to boast of! humans student leh. i've only got that ugly cutesy schoolgrader scrawl to call my own
-didn't deal with relationships wisely, who can say that they did 100% of the time- but i know i didn't say goodbye when i could have and should have
-the numerous occasions i put my relationship w my mum under strain... 4 months away from home and im really questioning why i used to put up a fight when she was clearly on my side all this while

of course, there r the happy things i won't forget:
-always in love and being loved, meeting that someone who is totally serious abt me
-the best friends and the good friends and the buddies and the da ge
-having my parents support whatever choices i make, esp those in studies and career
-the hamsters... hahahaha
-a healthy body and mind. haha this is getting corny.
-a good education in the premier institutions of learning
-getting this scholarship and being here. things arent always straightforward and sharp around the edges, but all things considered, it's a blessing
-good food: ive been fed well and taught to love it... too many favourite foods to list as i discovered over the weekend
-the joy of serving others even if it means doing things that i don't have to.. this is genuinely felt
-travelling... 2005 was definitely the year of taking flight

the much awaited, annually published birthday wishlist:
1. be more disciplined
2. be less bitchy
3. be less materialistic
4. be grateful
5. be happy!!!!

the end.

trying desperately to avoid burning out. what burn out if you havent been doing much work right?? i dont know either, but suddenly nothing was going in, nothing was being retained, and nothing interested me anymore. really scary. my solution was to fuck care work for 2 consecutive days, but u and i know its not a sustainable solution to the problem. better get 'back to work' in a slow but steady way. shit, i need help.

the benefits of having a nice neighbour are numerous and the little nice things in life that one person does for another r too seldom appreciated. today a cactus, a movie, some salmon, an orange and shared laundry made my day that much sweeter. thanks feng.

in other news, i am suddenly rather motivated! to study, to gym and to generally be happy and upbeat abt things even if it's too easy to sian abt in the depths of week 13 (and 14 and 15 and etc... infinity series eh). sometimes all we need is smth to look forward to, it doesnt have to be much, but with that in mind, we find the courage to proceed with faith.

random photo of good days/thinner days. the boyfriend has a hilarious pensive look on his face. and i am distracted by some mysterious thing... heh..

best buds

oh my favouritest girls in the WORLD!!! i can say this with NO HESITATION. rmb taking this at mango? where we were so delighted with the deluding mirrors in the changing rooms which always make ppl look taller and thinner? so delighted we took photos of our reflections in the mirrors? i love how candid and natural these shots are haha. looking at them jus brings me back to so many memories, starting from RG in sec 3. i love the fact that we will always be close no matter where life takes us. it's like a given, but never something i wld take for granted :) btw, u guys r so gonna kill me for posting the next photo HAHA.. but its damn sweet, i think u guys were sleeping over at my place:

i live in london, should be an aries girl and have a 'man'friend lol.

You Belong in London

A little old fashioned, and a little modern. A little traditional, and a little bit punk rock.A unique woman like you needs a city that offers everything.No wonder you and London will get along so well.

What City Do You Belong In?

Your True Sign Is Aries

DaringFriendlyEnergeticRisk TakingDynamic DaredevilAlways on an AdventureWithout a Care in the WorldQuick-Witted and Quick-Tempered

What's" Your True Sign?

He is a Man

You have yourself a perfect gentleman and a total keeperYour guy almost always acts appropriatelyHe's probably even very upstanding when you're not aroundThere's no boy left in your boyfriend - he's all man!

Is He A Boy or a Man?

hahaha... how bohliao. and to prove how bohliao i can get, here's another one of those quiz thingies u fill up when ure bored.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:1) jo 2) jolyn 3) mojo

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD: 1) uninitiated 2) azazel 3) jochua

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:1) my face (haha!) 2) my small hands 3) my hairless limbs hahahaha

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:1) fat ass! nuff said. my genes la. 2) arms getting flabby... whatever happened to the jockish tradition of the cheekygirls?? 3) no stamina at all

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:1) the sea and drowning 2) frogs and toads 3) vampires and spooks

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:1) sleep 2) marshmallows 3) food

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:1) underwear (important okay!!) 2) skirt 3) spag strap under a long sleeved white blouse

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:1) yanzi 2) jay 3) random hip hop rnb rubbish

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE SONGS:1) ji de by zhang hui mei 2) wo yao de xin fu by yanzi 3) ai zai xi yuan qian by jay

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:1) love 2) laughs 3) understanding

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order):1) i hate math and stats and The Ministry for making me take them 2) i work out at the gym 3) I love my hall

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:1) cute ass 2) nice hair 3) abs

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:1) reading 2) DOTA 3) cycling

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:1) finish all my homework 2) eat hokkien mee from clementi. 3) watch brokeback mountain

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/YOU'VE CONSIDERED:1) doctor 2) journalist 3) roadside sweeper

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:1) egypt 2) mauritius 3) singapore... hoho

THREE KID NAMES YOU LIKE:1) darren 2) derrick 3) kieran

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:1) make my parents proud 2) Get my 15 seconds of fame 3) have good kids

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:1) i curse 2) i kick and punch when offended 3) i dota

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:1) hiao 2) love my skirts 3) crybaby

THREE PEOPLE THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:1) em 2) phil 3)gerald

the reason why im so free today is that i ponned ST102 woohoo! only 1 hour of school, come on, tell me it's not worth it!! ;) the utility derived is totally maxed out :)

ok that's me in venice. damn gorgeous sunset at san marco... the photo can't capture it fully but yeah. anyway.....

after a close shave, i feel damn blessed already. ive resolved to not complain abt things openly anymore. while i may murmur thoughts of buay-songness from time to time, the rest shall remain bottled up inside me where things will not explode but will diffuse. why? cos my close shave has put everything into perspective. along with the news that my da ge is going to be a preacher for 2 years. (not my real da ge for the uninitiated... the real one is bumming at home i bet) im still rather shocked, firstly at his choice and secondly at my ignorance. anyhow it's lifechanging and im so excited for him. i wish i had the balls to stand up and do something really different and meaningful too! my only reassurance is that this will come a few years down the road when im in the civil service. one small fry hoping to make a difference, - not to the system itself, but to the kids i come in contact with. the challenge is in keeping that hope alive and finding meaning in it for myself.

it was a weekend of birthdays, thursday nite being dax's dinner at loon tao and fri nite being nic's very belated little party from phil and myself. wow. my best friend's birthday coming very soon too (i jus got her a birthday present and im gonna send it back except i jus blabbed this little secret out on my blog hahaha) 20 years old liao. and my turn coming soon. thoughts on hitting the 2nd decade of my life? ive got one more year before im a fully grown adult so better enjoy until then... hahah the excuses that youth provides with you must be cherished fully. have not drank AT ALL since the new year began. a good thing i guess... the mistakes of 2005 shouldnt be repeated otherwise i'd be a damn fool. but hey, if its just to give my friends a kick and to make me feel happy i suppose a little wouldnt hurt. ha ha. what a delightfully ambiguous attitude to take towards alcohol.

have watched fantastic movies recently thanks to phil the di. trainspotting, zatoichi, pulp fiction are damn good stuff. have also been watching teary japanese serial with terrible sounding title courtesy of jax. thanks guys! it's happiness being entertained in dreary old london where movies go for three times the rate in singapore.

oh im mostly happy these days.

2006

wow it is so seriously time to get my life back in shape. ive really fucked away the last term of school... what the shit man. it means spending more time doing the things i ought to (vs what i want to) and generally being more disciplined abt every single area of my life. oh and btw im typing this at like 2.30 am, i jus got back from venice and im damn shatted, and still blogging. rrraaaaaa. my new year resolution is to not fuck away my school terms. thanks, that's really good enough for me.

spain

hello, im back from spain. here's my periodic updating. the trip was pretty good, heh heh. the shopping was great. and some sights were really lovely,.. these r def my fav few photos. im going off to venice tmr nite... be back on saturday nite. hardcore travelling man! hw still incomplete heh.

had lunch w the phil-di today, it was perfect. good food, good coffee, good company, good books cough cough cough, what more is there to want??

hope everyone has a happy new yr!! here's to more good times man. im sure ill have more to say in my next post. hahaha!