Thursday, February 02, 2006

it snowed today! little itty bitty flecks of white coming down like rain, the weather unbearably cold for a chinese girl clad in a short skirt. even with 40 denier stockings on it's as if your walking butt naked in the cold!

today's EH class was fantastic. nothing but discussion on the pros and cons of capitalism vs communism. got heated cos of the american guy in our class gg at one point "it's hard to understate the benefits of capitalism" and other stuff like that, whereupon the rest of our class broke out laughing. he's so... American and so pro capitalism it's funny. the class is of course made of some americans, british, british indians, chinese, singaporeans, finland dude and an african lady tutor. very international in composition, very LSE.

rushed on to joseph lancaster primary school after that for my weekly community service with 5/6 year old tykes. these kids are also very international, we've got portuguese, bengalese, ecuadorean, turkish, somalese, nigerian etc etc. they are just so adorable. on my last lesson with them im gonna take lotsa photos and buy them stickers and sweets to reward them for being darlings. it's amazing how kids take to u, and u take to them. i really really hope they get their studies straightened out so they'll have a gd life ahead of them. honestly speaking the area they come from (elephant and castle) isn't very well-to-do. it's also very dodgy. that doesn't make a fantastic environment for growing up, so my heart goes out to them, no matter how naughty they may sometimes get.

on my way back i called home and talked to my slightly sleepy mum. was mostly rambling on abt things here but i know she loves to hear from me every once in a while, even if ive got nothing very coherent or smart to say. the freezing weather makes me want to hibernate, and hibernating reminds of my blue room in my nice HDB flat where my nice family stays... so yah.. there i go again. lastly, got a package from chim!! from the US of A. CAAAllifornia. thanks dear! i'm gonna write back soon soon soon. that goes out to shups too. it's long overdue man.

MY ROOM

Tuesday, January 31, 2006



ok ok let this be the birthday post where i reflect on my past 19 ++ years of existence. this may bore you, in which case u can skip to the bottom where i list my birthday wishlist!! haha.

the regrets i've had so far:
-nvr developed a skill like singing or dancing or painting, instead chose to squander away youth in numerous playgrounds and with my barbie dolls and lego set and tv programmes
-nvr worked on my writing when it was the best thing i had to offer to myself, now i know that writing well is smth to be honed and not taken for granted
-i don't even have a decent handwriting to boast of! humans student leh. i've only got that ugly cutesy schoolgrader scrawl to call my own
-didn't deal with relationships wisely, who can say that they did 100% of the time- but i know i didn't say goodbye when i could have and should have
-the numerous occasions i put my relationship w my mum under strain... 4 months away from home and im really questioning why i used to put up a fight when she was clearly on my side all this while

of course, there r the happy things i won't forget:
-always in love and being loved, meeting that someone who is totally serious abt me
-the best friends and the good friends and the buddies and the da ge
-having my parents support whatever choices i make, esp those in studies and career
-the hamsters... hahahaha
-a healthy body and mind. haha this is getting corny.
-a good education in the premier institutions of learning
-getting this scholarship and being here. things arent always straightforward and sharp around the edges, but all things considered, it's a blessing
-good food: ive been fed well and taught to love it... too many favourite foods to list as i discovered over the weekend
-the joy of serving others even if it means doing things that i don't have to.. this is genuinely felt
-travelling... 2005 was definitely the year of taking flight

the much awaited, annually published birthday wishlist:
1. be more disciplined
2. be less bitchy
3. be less materialistic
4. be grateful
5. be happy!!!!

the end.