my desired happiness

today is saturday.. on monday im heading off to spain the land of gaudi, goya, dali, picasso, jose carreras, serie a, etc. right now im stuck btwn inertia and anticipation... time to get more psyched up man!!! friends family and myself are looking forward to crazy holiday tales so i better live it up when im there ;) just finished doing the bookings for the hostels (damn last minute, tell me abt it) so now just idly daydreaming of seeing beautiful things and beautiful ppl on my trip.

actually wanted to go to more than 1 country this hols, since most ppl i know are going 2,3 or more haha. but well i'll be jumping around 5 regions during my 10 days so that's already rather hardcore travelling! maybe i can squeeze in somewhere during the first few days of jan. prague? paris? glasgow?

i so badly want to do something damn exciting on the spur of the moment. if anyone has a crazy plan and needs a crazy khaki to jump in with them, im their girl!!

ok wish me luck, ill come back with lots of photos and horrific adventure stories for ya. love.

take a sad song and make it better

the holidays are here.. ive spent the past few days of liberation cooking, watching naruto, dotaing, reading, lazing around and sleeping - alot. how fantastic to finally catch a breather and do things i want to do, without the pressures of being at a particular place at a particular time to meet whoever. after this im going to bake muffins and go to hyde park to read my new book- the curious incident of the dog in the night time (ridiculously sad and cute at the same time). how fantastic right!!! i love this feeling. for first time since ive been here, i suddenly feel inexplicably happy and at ease. im not talking abt the momentary high... plenty of that to be gotten from drinks- but a sustained kind of happiness. maybe this is what my friend meant when he said tt i sound more lighthearted these days. a few thousand miles away, and a msn conversation with someone i havent spoken to in months, but the truth of his words caught my breath for a second or two.