take a sad song and make it better

the holidays are here.. ive spent the past few days of liberation cooking, watching naruto, dotaing, reading, lazing around and sleeping - alot. how fantastic to finally catch a breather and do things i want to do, without the pressures of being at a particular place at a particular time to meet whoever. after this im going to bake muffins and go to hyde park to read my new book- the curious incident of the dog in the night time (ridiculously sad and cute at the same time). how fantastic right!!! i love this feeling. for first time since ive been here, i suddenly feel inexplicably happy and at ease. im not talking abt the momentary high... plenty of that to be gotten from drinks- but a sustained kind of happiness. maybe this is what my friend meant when he said tt i sound more lighthearted these days. a few thousand miles away, and a msn conversation with someone i havent spoken to in months, but the truth of his words caught my breath for a second or two.